hello!dam blog's been rotted sso much.
hhah, anyw been burying my head in world of warcraft since i can install it and o's was bad. yeap. sort of a way to prevent my life from being totally lousy, to me at least,

know what? i thought we could be. thought you were diff. do you have any idea how much it hurts?
endless nights hoping waiting for you to come back.
then one night, i realised. i was in love, with your memory. the you that cared. the you that took my hand. the you that took away my pain. th you that loved. maybe this person still is in you somewhere.i don't know, and i seriously doubt. but either way. i miss her.

o's is soo fucked. got like 12. which i freaking lost to people that asked me to teach them, bah. what does all that matter anyw
i freaking worked my ass off. just to do this. ONE SHOT. and i missed.i'm not worried abt anyone's approval.nor is it anyone's way that they looked at me. the thing is. i disappointed myself. god. HOW IS IT THAT YOU CAN HAVE THE HEART TO DO THIS TO ME. damn it.this is actually why i wow-ed again. no point studying and rocking all the way but falling when it matters.


LIFE SUCKS. welcome to prove me otherwise.

pretty much for the last few weeks lifes been routine. heh. studying as always, WoW ing more now. hahaha. so anyways schools alright. got into a new class today so yeah i likee my class (1 &2! hahah inside joke) soo yeah teacher kinda reminds me of genevieve tan haha. whats more is that shes a chinese teacher LOL.

pretty much been thinking alot.all this time. i also dont know why i do anyw. kinda draining to do tt all the time. it sucks to be held in so low in someone's heart when they're alll the wayyyyyyy on top in yours. ha, and yeah. but i alr know there's no chance whatsoever. so ima kinda holding on to nothing right now. both friends and you hahaa.

math 2mr. with some school. sholud me jumping for joy tt i made the main team for it. so not benchwarmer?haha.

Thunder
Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
Im holding on to something
and I do not know why I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation;
what Im feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder

So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I dont know, whoa
Today Im on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I dont know

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder

So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Yeah Im walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time

Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain
Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said

Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder

So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder

So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder


irvin sent me this song.haha well it kinda connected to me immediately and now im hooked to it haha.it sure means alot, esp since 9th jan was exactly one month from that fateful day. i went back to the same spot. but everythings different. no. the safety float was still there,so was the stage. but the core was missing. you. those stars that shone so brightly, missing as i looked at the completely dark night sky. that same feeling of pain, of sadness,exactly wat i've felt for the entire month. many times ive wanted to pen you a letter, but i never could complete a sentence. i dunno how to describe what i feel to you. funny thing is. i asked myself. was it worth it? to feel happiness at a new high, but also be thrown to the deepest heartache i've had to stand through. weirdly my answer was yes. it was worth it. that that one moment of total bliss. where nothing mattered.where i finally found peace.
so, i wanna say thank you.
for everything.

i got into the soccer team;D

helloooo.

haha.today's alright i guess.went for akltg's movie gala. at vivocity.

met jasmine at serangoon.supposed to be at dhoby one lurhs.but she delay till i got too much time so went to serangoon again.

haha.went to candy empire.bought 2 jellybeans(omgzxzx) one of which ended up as her xmas present =x but it's super nice!eating it as i blog right now haha.

anwy went to toys'r us where i bought the smpson's PEZ sweet thingy.haha.it's homeeeerrrrr the idiot so yupp i'm happy.there's something i always love about just being at tt store,perhaps cos i went there alot when i was young.the "feel" of being there's the same.though all the toys being sold are diff.nostalgica? maybe.

headed to BK next.hungweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.bought food and the went to the sky garden.

man tt place is awesome haha.too bad the sun's too damn hot.boo haha.yeah and the see saws are nice too!fun lah but i feeel overaged to play tt=x

back down to superdogg to have lunch with edwin,kristal,lilian, etcetc(yea i forgot) after soaking our legs in the pondddddd.so niceee.limshuyi came soon after and we orderde lunch after waiting for 20 mins for people to come(which they didnt)

then it was arcadeeee.ended up bored cos played pool and i dun like it hahaha.so played the ice hockey table thingy and kena sabo play parapara(i got A okay maybe i make a good ahlian xD)
played till many others like my dear anton and syafiq and etcetc and shuyi's julian came.went to GV and saw super slot of ppl, old and new.angel was there.frankly i didn't know whether to smile or run away?she's a diff person now.not the caaring angel i knew,but just, well,cold.
yupp so watched national treasureee(AGAIN) but it was in gv max so yah.but it's not really big leh
normal bah ahha..
finished homed with syafiq and sylvester. bathed and so here i am.haha,

been doing alot of thinking lately.
is small moments of happyness all we get? that you only can treasure that.and pray and hope it never ends?but as it finishes it's torn away from you,leaving no trace that it was ever there? well, at least i have that memory.and i hold it close to my heart.

HOW MANY KEYS ARE ON YOUR KEYCHAIN?
no keychain
WHAT CURSE WORD DO YOU USE THE MOST?
cheeeeee-ken nuggets.i'm a nice boyyyy(:
WHAT TIME IS YOUR ALARM CLOCK SET FOR?
no clock?
DO YOU WEAR FLIPFLOPS EVEN WHEN IT’S COLD OUTSIDE?
Yes.
WOULD YOU RATHER TAKE THE PICTURE OR BE IN THE PICTURE?
depends on who the others are in the photo
WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
National Treasureeeee.
IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY, WHAT ARE THE FIRST THINGS YOU WOULD BUY?
NUM! the whole shopXD
HAS ANYONE EVER CALLED YOU LAZY?
nope.but someone calls me pig alot XD
DID YOU EVER TAKE MEDICATION TO HELP YOU FALL ASLEEP FASTER?
Nah.
DO YOU PREFER REGULAR MILK OR CHOCOLATE MILK?
CHOCOOOOOOOOOOO
HAS ANYONE TOLD YOU A SECRET THIS WEEK?
Haha yea.
WHAT DID YOU HAVE FOR DINNER?
mee siam(x
DO YOU WEAR HOODIES OFTEN?
my new jaket has one so yes
CAN YOU WHISTLE?
Think so.
HAVE YOU EVER PARTICIPATED IN A PROTEST?
Lol noooo.
LAST RESTAURANT YOU ATE AT?
Burger King hahaha.
WHAT DID YOU DO YESTERDAY / WHERE WERE YOU?
sleep?/in my bed(like duh)
DID YOU WATCH CARTOONS AS A CHILD?
Yepp.
HOW MANY SIBLINGS DO YOU HAVE?
2 girls one older one younger.boooo
ARE YOU SHY AROUND THE OPPOSITE SEX?
verrryyyyyy (X
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST REGRET?
haha ^*(^&*$%((&*
WHEN WAS THE TIME YOU LAUGHED SO HARD YOUR SIDES HURT?
5mins ago XD
WHAT MOVIE DO YOU KNOW EVERY LINE TO?
dodgeball/white chiks/too many
DO YOU OWN ANY BAND TEES?
Nope.
HOW MANY CHAIRS ARE AT YOUR DINING ROOM TABLE?
8
WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SALAD DRESSING?
RED WINEE VINEGAR.
DO YOU READ FOR FUN?
Uh newspaper for socer scores counted?
CAN YOU SPEAK ANY LANGUAGE OTHER THAN ENGLISH?
Mandarin and dialect for you-know-what.
DO YOU DO YOUR OWN DISHES?
nopee
WHAT COLOUR IS YOUR ROOM PAINTED?
greeeeennnn
HAVE YOU EVER CRIED IN PUBLIC?
haha
ARE YOU USING A DESKTOP OR LAPTOP?
Desktop.
WHICH DO YOU MAKE: WISHES OR PLANS?
both actually
ARE YOU ALWAYS TRYING TO LEARN NEW THINGS?
Not really lol.
ARE YOU CURRENTLY WANTING ANY PIERCINGS OR TATTOOS?
like i said.nice boy(:
DO YOU BELIEVE THAT THE GUY SHOULD PAY ON A FIRST DATE?
Yepp.
WHO WAS YOUR FAVOURITE TEACHER?
WENDY TANG
HAVE YOU EVER DATED SOMEONE OUT OF YOUR RACE?
Naw.
WHAT IS THE WEATHER LIKE NOW?
Fine?
WOULD YOU EVER DATE SOMEONE COVERED IN TATTOOS?
is she hot?
WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE CLASS BACK IN WHERE YOU USED TO STUDY?
recess
WHAT PERSONALITY TRAITS ARE A MUST-HAVE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
hot,hot,hot,hot and err, hot x)
HAVE YOU BEEN ATTRACTED TO SOMEONE PHYSICALLY UNATTRACTIVE?
Not to me, lol.
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SLEPT ON THE FLOOR?
just now?
DOES YOUR CLOSEST STARBUCKS HAVE A DRIVE-THRU?
Nah.
DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIVING ARRANGEMENT?
I'm fine with it.
HOW MANY HOURS OF SLEEP DO YOU NEED TO FUNCTION?
as much as i'm not pulled outta bed
DO YOU EAT BREAKFAST DAILY?
Not really.
WHAT WAS THE LAST THING THAT SCARED YOU?
secret.haha
ARE YOUR DAYS FULL AND FAST-PACED?
It's alrrrright.
DID YOU EVER GET IN TROUBLE FOR TALKING IN CLASS?
Haha.i get in trouble for BEING in class.boo
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FRUIT?
honeydew.
WHAT ARE YOU WATCHING RIGHT NOW?
theee simpsons!
DO YOU BELIEVE IN LIFE ON OTHER PLANETS?
Maybe.
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON TO PISS YOU OFF?
mom?
DOES YOUR CRUSH HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?
nope(:
DO YOU GET ALONG BETTER WITH THE SAME OR OPPOSITE SEX?
I think I've got more friends of the opposite sex.
WHAT DID YOU DRESS UP AS FOR YOUR FIRST HALLOWEEN?
I never did.
DO YOU LIKE MUSTARD?
YESSSSS.
WHAT DO YOU TELL YOURSELF WHEN TIMES GET HARD?
lol.
WOULD YOU EVER SKYDIVE? Don't think so. DO YOU SLEEP ON YOUR SIDE, TUMMY, OR BACK?
Side.
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF ANGELINA JOLIE BEING PREGNANT?
no more hot?
DO YOU ENJOY GIVING HUGS?
haha AKLTGGGGGG so yesss
WOULD YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF TO BE FASHIONABLE?
Not really.
DO YOU OWN A DIGITAL CAMERA?
heheheheheh
DOES IT ANNOY YOU WHEN SOMEONE SAYS THEY’LL CALL YOU BUT THEY NEVER DO?
YESYESYES.
ARE YOU A VEGETARAN?
i like veg dishes.certain ones only thou
WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?
Nothing?
ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
Perhaps.
WHAT’S YOUR OPINION ON SEX WITHOUT EMOTIONAL COMMITMENT?
yay?
IF YOU WERE BORN AS THE OPPOSITE SEX, WHAT WOULD YOUR NAME HAVE BEEN?
dunno.why dun you all think for me?

soooo.it's another day haha.started off well.
went have brunch with the idiots and well,ended up drinking haha.
sort of stupid lah considering i went home hungry.haha.so had to go out t buy food in the afternoon.
AFTER that i fell asleep instead of going to play mahjong
lol im becoming antisocial haha
anyw in other events, was msging ELYH(lol) and she's now online watching her dunno what show.hmmm shall finish the post and go disturb her some more haha!life's so boring right now.and i'm like a damn pig haha.

oh yeaaa haha

anyw then we went to marina sq.which is pretty stupid la cos she works there then have to go there again ahha.but oh well it's always a diff exp with me XD

sooooooo, we went to andersens and ate FONDUE haha.which is like 3 out of 5 ice creams were rum and rasin cos we both like it haha.then eve has a weird way of eating fondue haha.she puts the ice cream on the spoon before using the sitck to put choco on it.hmmm not bad actually, even though it was dumb looking?xD then she didn't like strawberries.and there were four :DDDDDDDD more for me! haha. movie after that.national treasure. quite nice? its same as the first one always nice haha.super nice puzzle crazking and stuff.haha.only thing it was super cold! man can feel the wind blowing at us lah can.hahah.andand the flim blacked out halfway.hmmm.

she so posing secretly.haha!

lawl.

finally someone takes the pic for us. i too shy to ask x)

THE END(:

i know my last few posts were reeeally stupid haha.
so this one's entertaining!i hope.
haha
coach trg was a blast.
met LIM SHUYI for the last few days t study the content.
yupp.then on the morning of the damn trg,
suddenly got one fierce voicce behind going
SEND THEM ALL HOME LAH.
it was leroy(phantom of the opera music playing)
lol.he's a trainer.
but i no see him before
so in my mind,
i was like. OH SHIT. i'm gonna die..
haha.but there were many nice pple(yes leroy,you too)
met ANTON.
thot he was a mthrfukin ahbeng.
nope.nicenice boy(tt likes someone haha)
good bro too.someone thot we were blood bros since our hair same haha.
so we jus played along with the story.haha
then there was ADELINE.
she's like 25 years old(leroy is 26 rofl)
but she's realy cute haha
not in a i like her way but in a entertaining way.
i'm glad t have met someone so unpretentious and caring towards eveyone
hence i did my best t help her for the test and stuff.
i hope evryone i meet next time are like those two haha.
aft tt went buying prom clothes w youknowwho
aft tt wat happen cant say.
onli can say tt i trust my friends(or rather,friend)


PROM
damn it was nice!
haha
bloody hell julio
but BODY LOTION on my cake while i was away.
then i tasted half of th strawberry
lucky i not hungry ah
haha
but can't blamme him. i put lotsa salt in his drink.haha
and he's the damn pron king-.-
what a waste haha
ohoh which reminds me
the prom queen for bpghs is shuyi!
omg lol
the clothes were fab!
girlfriend looked nice, shiyang,fionaheng,wenting,grace,anadee,adeline,xinyu,cindy,steph etc all looksed nice!
i still think joanna wore the same things she did for dining etiquette haha.onli tt she added the flower and shawl haha
OKOK she still looked fab.
lol
aft tt went home.
i still wished...
lol shall stop thinking abt it
tt's all!

i was a fool.
i was blind.
to think you actually cared.
no.
it was all along,
HOPE you cared.
thinking back,
it was obvious.
the answer is NO.

you live your life,
all happy and shit.
when u needed someone,
i was there.
now tt you don't anymore.
you just get rid of me.
great.

these past few days.
you know how much it hurts?
how much i think of you?
i msg you.
all i get is 4 words.
thanks. etc etc..
did you even know i existed?
was a fragment of me even in your mind at all?
guess not.
like i said.
i was a fool.



i don't need anyone.
i can stand up by myself.
its better than falling all over again.




I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old.
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.



some words are white for a reason.

thanks guys.i'm fine now(:


Create your own Friend Test here

do it!

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love in suicide

You say you're cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore
I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

I know you know we're had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday

And baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

And I wasn't there when you were happy
I wasn't there when you were down
I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you.

saw you in school tday,
was happy you could smile laugh and stuff,as usual.
just glad you were happy for once.
i don't know why.i still hold on to the thin line of hope
even if your blog suggests otherwise.
sure.you can leave.
you can forget me.
but i choose t wait.
i choose t,just like you chose your path.

even if we remain strangers,
it's still enough t see you from far.

i keep wishing you'd just turn back.
but do wishes come true?

IMY,ILU

say no more.
i know.there's no turning back.
aft everyth this morning.

i see all i do is depress you,stress you.
while anyone else can make you smile.
tt's how useless i am
so i know.
you can go.
you chose to.
as much as i tried t make you stay,
it didn't work.
i'm sorry i couldn't take waiting 2 years.

sorry for all the buckets of tears i caused.
guess you wouldn't need to anymore,
i'm not there to cause it.


sorry for all the things i said tt's bad.
don't worry.i won't do anyth.
the point of this post,if you still read,
is that i wish you all the best.
you live life how you want to okay?
live it t the fullest.
then i'l be happy enough.

don't think abt it anymore.
cos it makes you sad.
just be happy.
tt's alll i ask.


i'm sorry for everyth.

thank you.
for the memories.
for the moments.
for the joy.
but most of all,
for you.



gmorning-was so ready-
didn't even slp was studyin
had t do well lar-
and the question tt came out was NOT in the textbook
WHAT THE..
and it's like,10 marks like,OMG
well.
i'm just sorry i can't keep my promise.
the test prob didn't do well.
depressed lar.
but the next few,MUST do vehveh well
make up for today's shit.
yupp
i'm gonna keep my promise.



then just now.
i know it's my fault
just wanted t say i understood,
but you said nvm.
i know you've got pain.
and i respect tt.
everyone needs time alone-
but why did you have t say you give up..
but still i'l wait
one year,one decade who knows
but one thing remains,
I'L BE HERE.

why is there pain.

of the memories that can never be relived.

of the heart that is shattered.

of the soul that is broken.

yes.

you're still here.

but it's different.

you got your freedom.

i've my insecurity.

the fear of losing you.

the fear of being broken.

4 days have passed.

since i was shattered.

the tears have all dried up.

my eyes have no more.

i can't do anyth,
if there isn't you.

yes.it happened to me.go ahead, laugh,mock,watever.
screw you.
for those who discourage our being tgt.
may it happen t you.
yes.i made my mistakes.
but i've changed.
and it's cause of you ppl.
tt she left.


you.



mid year next week.dunno how t get thru it.
i just wanna die,please.

lol.my blog's like, rott-ed
I KNOW YOU ALL MISSED MEEEEEE
hmm.tt's lik cos i've been studying.YAH.
not like some ppl.slacking until23 april.arrgh.
but then again they do get bored yah?
yeah.
life's pretty routine.it's all books, the occaisonal floorball, and monday when i burn all my money when i see something nice.it so happens,i always do!

2mths.61days-hmmm.seems like forever,but we don't change(:
i heart TOOT-haha.

lol.my blog's like, rott-ed
I KNOW YOU ALL MISSED MEEEEEE
hmm.tt's lik cos i've been studying.YAH.
not like some ppl.slacking until23 april.arrgh.
but then again they do get bored yah?
yeah.
life's pretty routine.it's all books, the occaisonal floorball, and monday when i burn all my money when i see something nice.it so happens,i always do!

2mths.61days-hmmm.seems like forever,but we don't change(:
i heart TOOT-haha.

lol.my blog's like, rott-ed
I KNOW YOU ALL MISSED MEEEEEE
hmm.tt's lik cos i've been studying.YAH.
not like some ppl.slacking until23 april.arrgh.
but then again they do get bored yah?
yeah.
life's pretty routine.it's all books, the occaisonal floorball, and monday when i burn all my money when i see something nice.it so happens,i always do!

2mths.61days-hmmm.seems like forever,but we don't change(:
i heart TOOT-haha.

Ordinary World-Katherine Mcphee

The sun can't remember how to shine
And the colors all have faded into shades of gray
There's no life in this hollow heart of mine
Ever since you went away

Close your eyes and feel me hold you
Can you lead me through this ordinary world
Let the sky cry, restless rain to wash away the miles
Between us, 'cause without you it's just an ordinary world

If time could find a way to turn around
I would walk along the stars,
till I was back at your door
Every word,
every word is spoken but without a sound
And I found out what my heart is for
Close your eyes and feel me hold you
Can you lead me through this ordinary world
Let the sky cry, restless rain to wash away the miles
Between us, 'cause without you it's just an ordinary world

Hold your breath, here I come
Time to roll on mine
Take back, to your arms
Till we melt
Underneath the blinding sun
Can't remember how to shine
You're the life in this hollow heart of mine
Close your eyes and feel me hold you
Can you lead me through this ordinary world
Let the sky cry, restless rain to wash away the miles between us'
Till love can come redeem us '
cause without you

It's just an ordinary World

today is wrong.
woke up.wore th dark green shirt cos dad says it's nicer.
GAH.regretted man.
i think i like the green one more.
now's like mid afternoon, then onli got like 200 AT MOST.
hmmm.if like tt then how t fuel my pots-cny shopping.AHHH.
(financial crisis)
tt day went town w cj and p then he bought like, 166 worht of stuff in ONE STORE
okay la flash and splash so not tt bad.
eh i good man didn't buy anyth.YET.
saw this:
uber nice white and gold nike air forceI shoe.145

BROWN havaianas20-50

ripcurl slippers20-50

pircurl/mambo/volcom tees20-80
hmmm.goin shopping on wednesday.
(:
hope have enough money
like wat phillip and ben says.
i need a SUGAR MAMA.
hahaa.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHANIE.
jiemei.if i your jiemei sonia oso ur jiemei den how come not my birthday uh?LOL
okay not funny

today after school went sunplaza wif steph sonia kezia anadee jinshi mavis fengying alistair t celebrate steph's birthday..
bought ths smiley cake fr angie th choice bring t foodcourt eat..
steph did a GREAT job cutting the cake.might as well dun cut use hand tear.prob look nicer haha.
eat talk cock and talk abt TWITS WORHS.haha.den sonia and fengying like put the cake all over their mouth.like barbarians eh.hmmm.aren't they?
ya.den talk till 5 den went t popular walk.
steph boought this red metal pencil box
I WAN THE BLUE ONE,
OHOH and the WINX CLUB BAG tt's like omg nice haha.
but was kinda broke so didn't buy
lol my current bag is like TEARING APART le la.
hate it man.
anyw ya aft tt i went home early.



i really dun't understand why.
after 2 years, we're not tt bonded?
call ourselves batch 7.
one of our ppl birthday, can't even spare one f-ing afternooon eat f-ing cake.kucf man.
go study?please la.2mr chinese study wat f?
loser.dun go still pull ppl dun go. wtf is ur prob la.
curse you everyth FAIL.
LOSERRR.

enough said.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHANIE.
jiemei.if i your jiemei sonia oso ur jiemei den how come not my birthday uh?LOL
okay not funny

today after school went sunplaza wif steph sonia kezia anadee jinshi mavis fengying alistair t celebrate steph's birthday..
bought ths smiley cake fr angie th choice bring t foodcourt eat..
steph did a GREAT job cutting the cake.might as well dun cut use hand tear.prob look nicer haha.
eat talk cock and talk abt TWITS WORHS.haha.den sonia and fengying like put the cake all over their mouth.like barbarians eh.hmmm.aren't they?
ya.den talk till 5 den went t popular walk.
steph boought this red metal pencil box
I WAN THE BLUE ONE,
OHOH and the WINX CLUB BAG tt's like omg nice haha.
but was kinda broke so didn't buy
lol my current bag is like TEARING APART le la.
hate it man.
anyw ya aft tt i went home early.



i really dun't understand why.
after 2 years, we're not tt bonded?
call ourselves batch 7.
one of our ppl birthday, can't even spare one f-ing afternooon eat f-ing cake.kucf man.
go study?please la.2mr chinese study wat f?
loser.dun go still pull ppl dun go. wtf is ur prob la.
curse you everyth FAIL.
LOSERRR.

enough said.

I"m SO HAPPYYYY.
realireali vehvehvehveh happy(:
hahah you know why;D
things are finally begin t look up.and i never wanna stop(;

BYES
ilu
clarinda can't read this.HAHAHA!

FUCK.
so pissed off.
"waa so busy eh"
knn. jus because you see me wif her doesn't mean we're goinout right.jus becos i can't fucking go t the god damn skit comp you see me talking t her and you ASSUME.
pissed off.

now stuck in the god damn lib alone.
thot got ppl comin pei me.end up all ps.wth.
thot can go lib peaceful and nice talk talk.
end up,go home.anyth la.



FUCKFUCKFUCK.

enough said.

finally got my lazy ass t blog hahaha.

the new floorball jersey's nice man.tt time trg i see like all wearing man u jsy sia.hahaha.i got like 7 this year which is like an uber cool number.LOL.eve say 13 nicer.NOT haha.
ohya during floorball finally steph,girlfriend aand winnie come sia.not bad eh.we four plus RUL,who uber looks like ronaldhino(not kidding HE DOES)score the first goal sia.but we still lost like 2-1. oh well..
yesterday got harvest.hmmm saw the sec 4s pic.life jus aint the same w/o em.no one to get bossed arnd..no one t get bullied by...hahaha..oh well went doodling on the bookk cos my hair there was still uber short.lol so everyone else had t look bad too (x
today chinese and eng class was the onli fun part.in com lab cj and me go watch mtv and floorball videos.wooooooo.hahaha then in chinese joel dunno why kip saying his birhtday was may10 cos i bought havaianas for girlfriend.LOL
besides tt these few days pretty boring.go school.go shit go die.hahaha.nex week's gonna get better.i hope.unless someone who claims she looks bad in photos(SO not true)can get time off her WORK SCHEDULE for lunch with the ohsoprettyandwonderful me yup.(:
tt'll make my tues nice(:

wahhhh.sian.
ytd was okay la.i paid attention i class wow.the whole day whenever i saw THE NIECE she'd make me say HI vehveh loudly,cos i promised to lol.end up smacking kamesh haha.
yeah aft skool went eat lunch w girlfriend.lol end up go there we were like:i dun feel like eating lehs.haha so end up both eat halfway den go le.
den she ps me go home while i went for floorball.quite okay la.beat gary and vic's team like twice tgt w jerome.scored all 3 goals(: first win 2-0 nex 1-0
went blind walking aft tt.nice and peaceful

today, i so paid attention again.triple math oso got lurhs.LOL.
today gf didn't come eh/ supposed to get locker w her but she nv come.lol ali told me i can get sports locker haha.no queue.
there's still one i'm kinda sad/pissed/confused abt.
i just wish you could turn back time and be the happy person you were to me.now every little thing i do you just snap at me or watever. i reali dun understand..

SCHOOL STARTED.
camps over.
hahaha.jus came home from sec1 camp.damn nice man
i took 1d w sean..yeah.not veh nice la the class, but the camp was nice
first day within lunchtime i used like half my voice so i was like OMGOMGOMG hahah
the class spent damn long argueing abt the campfore presentation stuffs.LOL-.-
anyw the more interesting part was night onwards.miss lim was telling us lik:you know i have this sick desire before i die,to kill someone with a golf club?you know,crack their skull and stuff.it's jus human la.

LOL.we were like, inching away from her lurhs.rofls
then we had to move the canteen benches to the parade sq.man it was HEAVY.hahah
but when campfire started it started to rain.lmao.den had to arrange the canteen one haha.
so as expected aft campfire we had to clean the canteen and move back everyth.and dun forget we moved out ALL tables and benches.LOLOLOLOLOL.but you know jiangwei's grp performed father abraham,which required abit of shaking.lol zhanqing jiahui sean me and wilfred were almost rolling on the floor when we saw him.LOL he was like, eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
haha.
anyw tt eve and phebe finally come like during bathing time so onli can say one hi and then no chance to talk le lol.
OHOHOH and it was EILEEN'S BIRTHDAY;happybirthday girlfriend(: anyw since i didn't get her a present on time i decided to treat her vehveh nice during the camp.hahaha.and I DID OKAY.

now DEAR LIPKAI; frigging "flirt"lol he got me as his "darling" eileen as his"darlingdarling" and joyce as his"darlingdarlingdarling" rofls.

needless to say aft all the hulabaloo we cleaned up till we were half dead. so ms lim pitied us and offered to buy us mac.lol i thot so nice then end up is i pay like,50 for the food.lmaolmaolmao...
lol so end of the day we slept at 3 plus, and phillip was snoring like you know how we snort PURPOSELY to imitate pigs?well he snores like tt.hahah.i told julio in the mornign then he was like:HAHAHHAHAHAHAH.lol
the nex morning we were like tired.i went to command post to REST.ended up sleeping and missed the cheering session.hahha.lipkai said he was using a loudhailer to call me but i didn't even move.wth?hahaha/
so blahblahblah the camp ended everyone say good job ms lim treat 12 bigbig pizzas for like 28 of us, and we play soccer at the pool area when ms lim pretend to scold me then play with us aft the teachers left.oh man.she just rocks(:

ohman.i'm bored again.GAH.
tis morning was still fine.my cousin was still here.so morning couldn't find ppl t play soccer.tt's fine.
so we jus gamble for vehvehveh long. tt&blackjack.
decided go jack's for lunch.lol.
wth half a dozen(6) oysters cost 12 bucks.
1 is 2 bucks.
we still buy.LOL.
then ate steak for main course.
someone complained the steak had too much fats in it after eating 3/4 of it.
the staff still stupidly giv a new one.wthwthwth.
then you know came the tea.i putlike3 packets in kevin's drink.
he said it tasted like chocs.hmmm.
well it's certainly better than drinking his orange juice tt i spiked with artificial sweetener. and salt.among manymany other things.he still drank it.LOLOLOL.

the bill came.128 bucks.rofls
paid.but outside still was eyeing the oreo cheesecake.
man i'm a glutton.
aft tt went home.fatso and kavin wre playing in the garden.omg.
they said they were digging a mudhole.
so i thought. mud needs water.
so i on th hose.and sprayed water.
lol they say too diluted.haha.then i saw a big stone.i threw it at the water.haha.the mud splashed on both of dem.
haha.tt's abt all.they all had to leave.didn't play lan in the end.sheesh.at home now.bored.empty.
suppose i'm jus cursed to a life of boredness?

the song below was being played on the radio.damn it suits me and my situation now.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While youre far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And Im wondering what youre dreaming
Wondering if its me youre seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God were together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

I dont want to miss one smile
I dont want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
I dont want to miss a thing

man.wat a wasted day.
i woke up at six.wth.my cousin was staying over so we started playing the x360.fifa07 as usual.
one draw.2wins.hahah.then went out wif the little ones to kick ball.had a damn good laugh.kids are just so clumsy when they play soccer.lol.
thought it was gonna be a good day.went to cut hair cos of the damn hpt camp.haha.went at 1030.cutted at 1.30.OMG.had to wait damn long.grr..
but the impt thing is that my hair IS SO SHORT.to me la.my mom prob will go.WHY STILL SO LONG.hahah wth.SO.. after tt considered continuing my christmas shopping BUTBUTBUT.i sooo dumbly found out i didn't bring the cash.arrgh. so yes.i didn't buy anyth.sry peeps.hahah.

3weeks.21days.
5 more days of horror.

omg i'm dumb.supposedly went christmas gift shopping BUT. ended up the whole time doing this; OMG this is nice and i buy stuff. GAH. bought like a shoe a bag and some stuffs. lol burned 100 bucks+++
sheesh.andandand went to skool for fball today.lol.man only won a match.hmmm.saw 2 hpt grps preping for camp and so i was like.wth.where's my group?hmmm. JOYCEKHOO tell me if got anyth la.otherwise dun say i dun go hor.anyway the sec2 boys are damn getting on my nerves.i stepping on a soccer ball like, my foot as on top of it and they jus fckg kick the ball away.boy will they get it nex time.not to mention they look like sibeh kp the face la.haha LCBs.
now leg got blister. wtfh. the damn corrective soles la.was running sumore.
aft skool considered gg to taka to disturb ppl but hey.it was raining like omgomgomg alot.so yeah.went home showered and went to play ball for a while wif the guys.hmmm. so long nv see dem le.they still look the damn same lol.they DUN GROW eh. cos old le ma.haha.esp you know who hor.heh.
i needa floorball stick.christmas is coming.+wink wink+

wow. it's tt long since i blogged uh.well.
i'm here again.

hmmm.shall start with GRAD NITE.hahaa.
funfunfun(:
everyone was like.supersuper glam. some surprises, and some well.. were just weird.
took manymanymany photos.but mostly not fr my cam.so now hAve none. anyw i'm too lazy to upload onto tis blog.
hahah.kept freaking out steph. i was purposely like.being ultraultra nice to her. and then she was like-OMG WHY YOU SO NICE SUDDENLY!?
ahahas.
yeahhh.ended at like.12+++
so naturally got home even laterr.
then lucky my momm didn;t kill me.
heh.nex day fell sick.
FOODPOISONING.
lol.
so couldn't go camp.
damn.why timing so nice de? wish tis could happen before trg camp rather than tis slack camp.
gah.anyw feeling better nows(:

you make it sound so nice. like you're the damn victim.
GAH. is it wrong? we were jus friends. like how you so often said.so what wrong was it to be with another?
and you left him cos you thot i could be a close friend? yeah right.
and you toohad feelings while you were still in a r/s.
so i'm not the only one.
if we were friends then why would you get so worked up?

the truth.heh. don't make it look like you're the damn victim.
don't push it.


lol.bio lesson now.soooooo sian.
effing tired>.< didn't slp at all eh.
hmmm.then again today's LAST DAY of skool(:
den goin fishing trip nex week:D

cb la.so pissed off.sseriously.my tolerance lvl for you is ZERO.
so stop pissing the effing shit outta me.
sheesh.

life's like that.
to think i believed again.

jus times in life where it's reali predictable.
what goes up must come down.
in this case it's me.

still/
i told you i'm gna do it.
and i'll stick to it.
as long as you'll let me?

well it really doesn't matter.
all tt matters is y--'re h----?
even if it meant b---- w h--?
yeah.

i'm frigging pissed.
ARRGH.
all because of a promise i made.
now i can't do anyth.
you're an ass. seriously.
everything you do,
DISGUSTS ME. yeah.

but no. i already decided not to go back to my old self.
so once again i'll jus TAKE A EFFING DEEP BREATH
and let go.



ARRGGH.
it sucks not being able to do anyth.
if i could, HELL YEAH I WOULD.

to the one who i pissed off tis morning(you knw who you are)
=/


SORRY!
i'm stupid.
i'm dumb.
i'm an idiot.
but most of all, like you say.
I'M A TOOT.

i reali appreciate all your concern and it was stupid. not you i mean ME
i didn't reali tink abt anyth and said tt stupid sentence.
meant it jokingly actually, but it wasn't taken tt way.
you're such a nice person.
and i'm the one who's supposed to be helping you, being there for you in your time of troubles. esp since wat happened to you ytd.
the past time we spent talking i reali enjoyed alot,
and now i jus feel lke shit.
you were soooooo nice.
sooooooooooooooooooooooo nice.
but i was sooooooooooooooooooooooooo stupid.
dun blame you for not replying.
and you'd prob be complaining to ppl abt what an ass i am.
which i am.
and i jus hope tt you'd find it in your heart to forgive me one day?
i reali treasure the nice times we had.
and err.
mayb i can tell you something which i've wanted to for quite some time?















=/ sry.

.sooo longg nv post ler.. so now start fr saturdayy.
err.OPENHOUSE.hmmm.pretty much a waste of time lor. but not all tt bad la. went w anadee, saman go CAMWHORING(:hmmm. guess i'll upload the photos soon:D
today was STUPID.yes +++STUPID+++ a complete waste of time lorr. go to skul. supposed to haf 2 HOURS of chinese. WAHH. den end up late. cos we didn't noe where the f was our class.so yeah was half and hour late.hmmm.guess tt ain't a bad ting eh:D
the class damn lame eh all the tables were removed so we had to sit on jus chairs.lol.end up behind w joel chenjie keqin.joel was being lame as usual. wif me being the UNFORUNATE victim. chenjie as taking songs fr my phone and keqin was luffing at me being tortured. hmmm. i WOULD HAVE LISTENED TO THE WONDERFUL LESSON:D but THEY DISTURBED ME. so eh. no choice(:
but ms ang let us off early:D
so went play soccer w joel and cj. and for a while the integ ppl when they came by.
JOEL SUCKS AT SOCCER EH. shoot 100 times mayb IF LUCKY score 1?hahaa.
then went sbw met KAI, GARY, RIKI, JULIO and PHILLIP. julio was using the mac internet to go p***(oops haha.)
then kai gary and me walked arnd the whole sun plaza pointing at lame stuffs like BATMAN games etc.LOL.
OH YAH. i saw FIFA07!!omg. i'm so gna buy it later:D
duncare if i get broke ah. MUS BUY.
hahah. yeah tt's alll. i'm bored?

hahaha now you ppl can't see!hmmm. well.now i can say wat i wanna.:D

ijus wanna see your face.these times when i finally talked to you again, made me feel fine, for that short period of time.even if you alr loved another. i'm alwaysnhere waiting for you noe we're prob impossible, cos he's buti'll always hope, and be there for you in the mean time... i

LOL.NOW IN SKOOL. mr tan so cool let us use the com for fun(:
hmmm. so ya.kai damn LAME EH. play batman.LOL.aft skool gna buy bag!whole day lookin for ppl to pei me go buy.so in the end elieen still went w me(:
camp postponed eh.yay. but can't skip hol classes.arrgh!
ya.



i miss your face
i miss your smile
i miss the sound of your voice
i miss the times we had,
i miss the jokes we shared
i miss the times we spent together, as i hoped it'll last forever.
i miss the conversations,
but most of all.

i miss you.

in the hall today kena shouted at for LEANING AGAINST THE WALL when i was so OBVIOUSLY NOT. so naturally i got a little ticked off. lol.today most of the gang nv come. so sat in the hall wif fiona doro shiyang they all PLUS joel. had der talent trek thingy. lol. nth much to say. sucks again. the onli good ting is the sec 2 drummer v pro eh.hahah.and tt upper sec won?hahaha. yeahs.was pretty much bored. it got even worse when the gym came in. spent the whole time REPEATING the same moves tt i could prob do too.hmm. okays mayb the spinning flip i can't la.hahah.yeah but tt REALLY BORED ME. hmm. okay la better stop criticizing gym. ltr js scold me lol. then aft skool went -drum rolls- LIBRARY!omg even ms tang said she was surprised.
still the whole day kept getting pissed off by ppl. like eew. and not onli i say. YOU HAVE A REPUTATION. so pretty much many ppl are also tinking the same.
played soccer during duty.hahah! wif bb boys. man i'm like rooney. regaining form but still not scoring.LOL. yaa.

didn't see you much today.mayb a couple of glimpses. that's all.dunno wat to say aft all. mayb it's best for me not to be in your life.maybe.you can call, or leave a msg. but you'd prob wun bother anyw.

i haf feelins for you.i always have.

for once i enjoyed hpt lol.mayb it's one of the few parts tt i'm good in?hmmm.
dunno how the sec 2s gna belay for the camp.dunno if they're ready.well i guess they'll make it thru somehow. heh for once can scold ppl for a change but couldn't bear to be fierce for long =x
yeah but i hope they understand we scold sometimes is so that no one will die at camp?lOl
steph you hippo. take ernie and elmo. then anyhow throw summore.AHH! i got the pic of the three soft toys.hmmm.will upload sometime later. lazy laa haha.
can't say i'm pissed off. jus almost. didn't wanna let the old me out.jus grit my teeth and let it go. hmmm. quite proud of myself.for once didn't find trouble w ppl.jus hope i wun have to revert to my old ways.it's certainly possible.i was that close to.but yeah just let goo.
feel like insulting ppl who are so totally, well nvm. like i said.
LET GO.
but i really feel like writing the defn of insecurity fr a dictionary into this entry.LOL.
please la.think you like damn wat lidat. sheesh.

nvm.i'm a happy guy.so dun bother mee with your insecurities(:

today was f-ed up as usual.
the hall was so damn boring.
but halfway they wanted us to rara the ppl while they wait for some performer to come. wth. no KAH.joyce was brave enuff thou.end up not too good den nvm ba. but mrs soh scold like soooo long lurhs. it's okay i still tink joyce and eileen were great(:
floorball was fun. airhooked all day! tink i shd put my video on msn.LOLS joking.
kl cut spike seh. looked sooo much more handsome lurhs. REALLY.

saw you today.didn't say much.now i'm fully convinced you dun reciprocrate my feelings. yeah.i like you.but the fact that this is happening shows you dun.i'll always be here for you no matter what.even thou you won't.or.. even thou you'd rather be there for another.

yeah. dunno wat to say?
lies. pain. it's all the same.
i wanted to believe you.
but i know it's never true.
so stop pretending now.
i know wat you reali mean.
i never meant anything to you.
but you meant everything to me.
now i've learnt my lesson.
i'll never look back.
that's the way it is.
so let's just face the facts.
i gave you my all.
but still meant nothing to you.

heh. it reali doesn't pay to try to be happy.something always comes along to stirke you back down uh.

i reali dunno wat to say.i did reali think that we had a chance. i thot i meant something to you. guess it wasn't so.each time i think of you. i feel the pain all over again.the words you said. heh. itprob never meant anyth to you. if not, where are you? you said you'd be there when i needed you. but you just left me here. hanging to die. when i saw those words from you, i dunno why i teared, or just gave up on everything. you gave me meaning in life. but now. it's all gone.
i thought i meant something to you.thought.


on the bright side, sec4 grad svc 2mr(:
mission.
1. take photos! AHH!
2.eve owes me a present. hah. nice gurl

cat told me last nite her hamster died. heh. felt kinda sad too cos i tink the day she got it was the same day i met her.reminded me of the time my dog died. i almost did too. but thru all this i'ver learnt to treasure all that i have. what could be more important than life? do we appreciate the people/things around us, the things that we already have? many times it's all about MORE and MORE.
well, in any case, if i die now, the next second, or anytime, i just want all you guys to noe i love you all so much, and tt i appreciate all tt you all have done,anything, big or small.

this songs nice. kinda show's how i feel now. I DON'T WANNA BE ANYTHING OTHER THAN ME:D
gavin degraw rocks.omg.

i tried.

i tried to forget you.
i tried to hate you.
i tried to let go.

no.
i couldn't.even after so long.
i know you have. but i haven't.
a few days ago we wouldve had our anniversary.
heh. i remember.31st.

nothing's working now.
i'm tired. physically and emotionally.
i need to rest.


3days.heh.very long seh.can't wait till exams overr.all the papers easy sia.xcept chinese la.which i will certainly fail.lol.
it's been more than jus studies for me. thru this exams and other ongoing things. i've learnt alot abt myself.yepp.i'm a very nice person now(:
hmmm.OHH.and my hair grew LONGER.yayy. aft tt traumatic experience. i learnt NEVER to let anyone other than the auntie cut liaos.haha
gna go aft phy paper. FIX IT.

bought drumsticks. as in, not the chicken la.hahah.
sooooooo long nv play le.v noob now eh. got time i'll prac ba.
now still prac guitar more. lookin for new songs thou.
i tink i'll die on monday.effing amath.rofl i'm supposed to be practising now?
hahah

i haven't seen yoou in a while. and each time i do it's not for long/
only a simple hi/bye, it reali gets to me.
that we're always headed in the opposite direction.
and you're always not arnd. be it c****** you or m**

hmmm.well it's here.exams.heh. can't say i'm ready. so much has happened before this and i csan't reali concentrate. dunno how i'd do.
can't sya i'm not disppointed at ppl. they tink i've moved on if you knw wat i mean. it's not been long but they still think i'm like dat. well i'm not. i'm not ready yet.in mayb a few months yes but not now. sheesh. still pissed at it.


btw wun be blogging till exams over and i'm now in e library. it's my turn to go for oral so brb(:

YOU STOLE MY BOOK.AND READ IT>AND PINCHED ME):
BULLY

I HAD IT ALL.
for once in my life, i thought i would finally be happy. but in the last 48 hours,
I LOST IT ALL.
lets start off wif handover.
after a GREAT TIME at e amazing race, (COLIN treat bubble tea lol(: we(sec3s) were still smiling and chatting, pretty much excited abt wat was to come. heh. did tings fast, ran my guts out during the ceremony thou. cos it was pretty much a pure panic for me la. it was, well i can't complain, and they said it was a standard marker for the next years, cos it was supposedly very good.hahs. tt's fine. congrats to the 2007 KAH thou.then play soccer wif pinwen, kahwee,reagen,wilson tan the fatass, and pretty much all hpt GUYS. scored ONE. assist 2. rahs. VERY FUN. got a leg cramp thou.LOL.
then kena scolded for playing. frankly, i dunch giv two hoots la.
den debrief say i nv go for fuckg meetings. wth. i go almost all lurhs. onli last week is my mom dunch let me out de lehhs. nvm la. go so many oso no use. nobody noes de wat. den ok loh. wun waste my time anymore. den a caertain person say like i no use lidat. so i concluded tt all of tt effort, was ABSOLUTELY a waste of time. oh wells.
dun giv me anymore roles cos firstly i'm prob useless as all of you noe.and i ain't givin a crap. so if ya wan a half past two job den giv it to me la. hah.serious.
den today was utter misery.damn kamesh and ben. lets jus say tt ONCE AGAIN, they screwed up my life.
NOW I HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE. CAUSE I"VE LOST IT ALL.
so you can do wat you want. i dun care. i've enuff pain thankyou very much.

I HAD IT ALL.
for once in my life, i thought i would finally be happy. but in the last 48 hours,
I LOST IT ALL.
lets start off wif handover.
after a GREAT TIME at e amazing race, (COLIN treat bubble tea lol(: we(sec3s) were still smiling and chatting, pretty much excited abt wat was to come. heh. did tings fast, ran my guts out during the ceremony thou. cos it was pretty much a pure panic for me la. it was, well i can't complain, and they said it was a standard marker for the next years, cos it was supposedly very good.hahs. tt's fine. congrats to the 2007 KAH thou.then play soccer wif pinwen, kahwee,reagen,wilson tan the fatass, and pretty much all hpt GUYS. scored ONE. assist 2. rahs. VERY FUN. got a leg cramp thou.LOL.
then kena scolded for playing. frankly, i dunch giv two hoots la.
den debrief say i nv go for fuckg meetings. wth. i go almost all lurhs. onli last week is my mom dunch let me out de lehhs. nvm la. go so many oso no use. nobody noes de wat. den ok loh. wun waste my time anymore. den a caertain person say like i no use lidat. so i concluded tt all of tt effort, was ABSOLUTELY a waste of time. oh wells.
dun giv me anymore roles cos firstly i'm prob useless as all of you noe.and i ain't givin a crap. so if ya wan a half past two job den giv it to me la. hah.serious.
den today was utter misery.damn kamesh and ben. lets jus say tt ONCE AGAIN, they screwed up my life.
NOW I HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE. CAUSE I"VE LOST IT ALL.
so you can do wat you want. i dun care. i've enuff pain thankyou very much.

I HAD IT ALL.
for once in my life, i thought i would finally be happy. but in the last 48 hours,
I LOST IT ALL.
lets start off wif handover.
after a GREAT TIME at e amazing race, (COLIN treat bubble tea lol(: we(sec3s) were still smiling and chatting, pretty much excited abt wat was to come. heh. did tings fast, ran my guts out during the ceremony thou. cos it was pretty much a pure panic for me la. it was, well i can't complain, and they said it was a standard marker for the next years, cos it was supposedly very good.hahs. tt's fine. congrats to the 2007 KAH thou.then play soccer wif pinwen, kahwee,reagen,wilson tan the fatass, and pretty much all hpt GUYS. scored ONE. assist 2. rahs. VERY FUN. got a leg cramp thou.LOL.
then kena scolded for playing. frankly, i dunch giv two hoots la.
den debrief say i nv go for fuckg meetings. wth. i go almost all lurhs. onli last week is my mom dunch let me out de lehhs. nvm la. go so many oso no use. nobody noes de wat. den ok loh. wun waste my time anymore. den a caertain person say like i no use lidat. so i concluded tt all of tt effort, was ABSOLUTELY a waste of time. oh wells.
dun giv me anymore roles cos firstly i'm prob useless as all of you noe.and i ain't givin a crap. so if ya wan a half past two job den giv it to me la. hah.serious.
den today was utter misery.damn kamesh and ben. lets jus say tt ONCE AGAIN, they screwed up my life.
NOW I HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE. CAUSE I"VE LOST IT ALL.
so you can do wat you want. i dun care. i've enuff pain thankyou very much.

I HAD IT ALL.
for once in my life, i thought i would finally be happy. but in the last 48 hours,
I LOST IT ALL.
lets start off wif handover.
after a GREAT TIME at e amazing race, (COLIN treat bubble tea lol(: we(sec3s) were still smiling and chatting, pretty much excited abt wat was to come. heh. did tings fast, ran my guts out during the ceremony thou. cos it was pretty much a pure panic for me la. it was, well i can't complain, and they said it was a standard marker for the next years, cos it was supposedly very good.hahs. tt's fine. congrats to the 2007 KAH thou.then play soccer wif pinwen, kahwee,reagen,wilson tan the fatass, and pretty much all hpt GUYS. scored ONE. assist 2. rahs. VERY FUN. got a leg cramp thou.LOL.
then kena scolded for playing. frankly, i dunch giv two hoots la.
den debrief say i nv go for fuckg meetings. wth. i go almost all lurhs. onli last week is my mom dunch let me out de lehhs. nvm la. go so many oso no use. nobody noes de wat. den ok loh. wun waste my time anymore. den a caertain person say like i no use lidat. so i concluded tt all of tt effort, was ABSOLUTELY a waste of time. oh wells.
dun giv me anymore roles cos firstly i'm prob useless as all of you noe.and i ain't givin a crap. so if ya wan a half past two job den giv it to me la. hah.serious.
den today was utter misery.damn kamesh and ben. lets jus say tt ONCE AGAIN, they screwed up my life.
NOW I HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE. CAUSE I"VE LOST IT ALL.
so you can do wat you want. i dun care. i've enuff pain thankyou very much.

hmm. PAULTWOHILL sang tis last nite. kinda reflects how i feel noww.
I wanna make you smile,
Whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
All I wanna do,
Is grow old with you.

I'll get you medicine,
When your tummy aches.
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
Oh it could be so nice,
Growin' old with you.

I'll miss you,
kiss you,
Give you my coat when you are cold.
Need you,
feed you.
Even let you hold the remote control.

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink.
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the man,
Who grows old with you.

I wanna grow old with you.

to DAR(: happy anniversary

dunno wat to say.
i'm disappointed yet helpless.
i wanted to go into tis handover having done something. as a logs i wanted to do wat i could for the team. you know, do work and stuff. yeah.i started off working hard. then the venue changed. then ops were like, giving sudden deadlines, then i couldn't go out(no thanks to my mom) so now tt they jus came out wif a logs list and timeline, i feel bad for not being able to do anyth. i mean. i can't blame the ops for giving those deadlines,they're stressed out enuff, but it's just tt i havent been able to do much, if not anything at all.

i'm reali greatful to js, cos she's always so ready and so darn hardworking. man everytime i call her, i'm jus amazed by her pro-ness. and i'm always asking her questions, not sure myself of wat i'm gna do. i'm pretty much useless right now.i wanna contribute and help but there's prob nothing left for me that i can do.

maybe i'm just not meant to be a head, or a hpt for that matter.
they prob dun need a guy who doesnt/can't do anyth.

this is for hpt la. hope it makes some sense.

it can't be denied tt we aint working tgt well. everybody/s killing each other. no one's happy.
but all of you, reflect. is this the way to go if we wanted to excel? what is our theme for handover? DO I MAKE YOU PROUD? well if the grads or sec 4s saw us like this, will we make them proud? hardly think so.

YES. most you you are working hard. most you you are giving in your all. it's GREAT.
at the same time, will it ever hurt you to not take out your frustrations on each other? by not snapping at each other, won't it make the job easier and better?
rather than breeding ill feelings, won't working tgt solve any prob faster?

is it any use. to stay stubborn and angry over something? sure, you all have your difficulties, but so do they.

and those who just don't do anything. but not pulling your weight, don't you ever think tt others will have to DO IT FOR YOU? heck some of you are even i.c.s. YES I"M BLOODY TALKING ABT YOU. SO WHAT.you people are the reason we aren't performing well now.

HPT- high performance TEAM.
it's a damn TEAM. so act like it.
i noe it's easy to say la. but i'm sure i can't do it.

NOT ALONE.

let's all just put our differencs aside, and work together, to PROVE. that we, batch 7, are as good, if not BETTER, than all other batches, and live up to the theme, do i make you proud(:

IT JUST DOESN'T HURT AT ALL.

wow. i mean wow. the past week hasn't exactly been a dream and all, i mean, we're all still having a hard time but wow. can't say wat la cos i prob cn't tell you guys till it actually comes. woww. so now it's jus waiting. waiting, waitinggg..... and damn time goes slower when tis happens.
anyw. today was acers. ya. and my nightmare came true. it RAINED. so it meant tt we all had to go on frigging stage to to the old acers. omg. den dunno how i ended up RIGHT IN FRONT. no one beside me x cept half the stage away which was kezia la. lo. felt ths MRS's pressure. hmm. kezia. i officially admire you. lol.
it went fine. but dunno why the grads and a few ppl said no good. i mean. come on. we did it. and it sure was better than when i was a sec 2. tt one was BORING. cos i wasn't HPT yet.chunfu was kind enuff to say MORE good tings, hope it was honest anyw.
den aft skool we go play dotA. sry la i first timer. but death prophet rocks la. excorcism in front of ROSHAN(which ben says dosen't look abit like YONGSHAN) rofl.
anyw I HAVE POTENTIAL. yeah. nex year gna win WCG. not like someon who kens owned sia. lool jk.
guess today was nice(: saw her in skool finally(:
guess i'm not goin tonite. i'll stay LOYAL(:


when can we finally stop waiting?

i dunno how to day how i feel now. pissed dosen't even begin to say it.

isn't it enough to have your world, your all, crumble in front of you?FOR YOU PEOPLE.i had to pull myself together, to do well for logs so that you all wouldn't have such a heavy burden.
i don't complain.for doing more work. to pull more than my own weight at the helm so that you guys can concentrate on other stuff and enjoy yourselves.

you people don't even bother to HELP with the easy stuff. i ask for a little, and you all say i slack. IT'S YOUR BLOODY JOB IN THE FIRST PLACE.

even getting resources is hard. i have to ask MANY times before i have to go the extra mile to get it myself.

even thru all my pain, my struggles, i don't even mention them to any of you, to let all of you carry on. but no. you all just shoved me down no matter what i did.

I"M SORRY FOR WORKING EXTRA HARD. for sleeping less just to get the job done. i know you all stay up late too. but if i didn't do all this, you'd be sleepin much later.

i sacrificed more than i had to. and i get ticked off for doing so. wth.

it's hard eonugh to hide what i have inside. it's worse when the people around you push you down further.

hell since when did i even care about HPT?
i don't even come to meetings, much less ask for one.
and all i get are grumbles and complaints.
FINE. now you just do whatever you want. cos i'm just gonna do what i have to, NO MORE, NO LESS.

i got my own troubles. i'm sry if i was mre nasty recently, mre blunt and inconsiderate.
but this is the time, i have to fight my own battle.since you people just care about YOU. till i gain victory on the inside, and peace resurfaces again, you will only see shadows of what i used to be.

.

hmm. the past few days have really been a learning experience for me.
learned alot abt life.

-get into it,100%. no i'm not talking abt anyone. i mean the handover ceremony.
been doing it till 3 plus the last few days, and reali got tis far thanks to chunfu(:
taught me alot of stuff. still, i tink i could do even better.hmm. we'll see.

-this thing called love. it screws people up. people change. they're no longer what they used to be. devoted, passionate abotu the things they previously loved. they're cocky, and they dont giv a shit except for their partners. wth. yeah i'm talking abt you. you know it.
at least i could learn that love never lasts and it screws people up. after all that time deovted to each other. thats y i gna FOCUS on my own life. yeah it sounds selfish but i'm sure if ya'll tink abt it, you'll see the logic.

-friends don't really listen, they don't really care. again, you shd noe who you are. i dunch care wat you ppl say abt friends, but PROVE ME WRONG.

getting my life back in focus, after all this time.

ha. guess all that was useful in fball. scored 8. hahaha. and there was one i tackled gary, airhooked jer, and snap shotted a TOP CORNER goal. ha. damn i'm good. lol JK.

anyw. come talk to memsg me, or call if you wan, for only those who care

here i am again. venting my anger on this blog. so don't expect it to be happy.it started frm tues. aft a f-ed up day at skool, thot i could have a nice time in fball. but onli cass and mich came. the rest, well you noe la.
on wed. had to freakin teach classes acers la. der 3h hpt ppl got help(:
so it wasn't as bad as i thot it would be.
aft skool go ben's hse.watched ppl play DotA. i like WATCHING. and i tyco conquered ALL in monopoly(:oh yeah(:
at nite i sat down and thot abt the troubles i had now and why i was goin thru all this pain.
then i remembered. i can't control what i am in now. but i can change how i REACT and RESPOND(:
i sought to change for the better, and made up with the ppl i had wronged, and thanked those who were by me all the while.
i felt good, i guess. i thot it was finally gonna change.
today aft skool dunno where the f kamesh went, cos actually wanted to go mac eat de.nvm.
when i got home, i went online. had an interesting conversation.
apparently the one who caused my life to get screwed in the first place was someone i had NEVER thought it would be. hell i don't talk bad abt you.never. so why did you have to do this to me? it hurt, and i never knew you could do that to me.
so i really ddunno now what to do with my life. everything i do doesn't work. the only peace i have are two sources. one is in my dreams, where i just SLEEP, and the other is with HER. but even now she seems so far away, when i needed you most):

FLOORBALL WILL RESUME TOMORROW, TUESDAY, 3.30PM.ALL DIE DIE MUST COME UNLESS YOU BREAK YOUR LEGS, OR NO HAND, NO OTHER EXCUSES WILL BE ENTERTAINED. FAILURE TO COMPLY WILL RESULT IN NOT BEING IN THE TEAM FOR THE TOURNAMENT.
YES, WE ARE HAVING A TOURNEY, SO ATTENDANCE IS NESESSARY.
PLS BORROW A STICK AND DON'T COMPLAIN IF YOU DIDN'T BORROW AND END UP STICK-LESS.
FINALLY, BE PUNCTUAL.
thankyou(:

Wondering the streets,
in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be,
nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that
you're twisting your hairround your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
Forgive me if I stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar,
i've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed,
and not be afraid to fall.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For youIf I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood
I wouldShout out your name so it echos in every room
I wouldThat's what I'd do,
That's what I'd do to get through to you
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will.


eve made this for me(:
ahahahs thx

it's always like this. each exam you think that THIS time it's gonna be better. THIS time it's gonna be great. well, guess THIS time never happens huh. screwed up a. math badly. lol.
but lets not talk abt skool. today aft skool i went to j8 w chenjie to supposedly buy shirts, cos like, we dun haf any? ya.bought a 37degree tee for like 30 bucks. LOL. not nice oso. wat to do he choose one wat. den the next hour was spent going arnd every store finding his pants/belt.
guess for wat. his DATE on wed.ROFLs.should have gone to far east la..
anyw popped by skool and hanged arnd for awhile before we went home.
btw. TODAY IS SAMANTHA"S BIRTHDAY. so wish her if ya see her okays(:
tt's abt all. i lead a v boring life.



you just don't seem to see how important you are to me. i'm not just anyone else i bloody CARE for you. and yet you just don't seem to want it nor even care at all.you are always the first in my life, but i guess i can't even be in yours.

well.common test is almost over.all the hard work, the late nights, the goals set. it all come down to this.each time i have a coommon test, i tell myself. no regrets. and i do all i can cause thats wat i want.
but there are 2 sides of a coin. when targets are not met, and failure is inevitable, i guess you can only improve from there?

hah. jus some thoughts as i'm playing fifa manager 2006. LOL. bought ballack. and he's like scoring at least 3 goals per game. klose oso. HAHA. and onli for 10m. cheap sia.
anyw u guys prob dun understand. nvm.
today was screwed as usual.last nite mugged till 2 plus, den during reading period kena punished. wth. for not bringing book? haha.den physics was easy.. but v easy got careless mistakes, which i have ALOT. damn. then a math. redo freakin 5 mark questions 3 times until the last 2 nv do. and each is 4 marks. oh mann.
damn pissed off by the paper so didn't wanna tink too much abt it.
on the way home julio was damn funny la. kaisheng become MO-LEE kai sheng.
ROFLROFLROFLROFLROFL..
den went mac eat and found out kamesh got new target sia. hmm.(:

any steph gave me an elmo which shiyang wanted to spoil cos of ben who DELIVERED it to him.
ahahs. thx anyw(:

i'm frigging pissed. don't mess with me.
today started off like it was gonns be just fine. hell. i sure didn't see it coming.
memorised all the chinese stuff. the test tt time rite. all the need to memorise tings i can do. it's the compre tt dun need to study kinda stuff i dunno. so end up nv finish.
THEN CHEMISTRY. wth. last nite i went thru at least 4 assesment books, including REDSPOT(which is supposed to USUALLY contain the best stuff u need for exams). i was damn confident today was finally gonna get a for chem. UNTIL i saw the paper. wth. how am i frigging supposed to noe what methane is? the paper was FROM HELL. hah.
it didn't end there. aft skool freaking gotta wait for ppl for 1 bloody hr, then end up go sembawang suddenly wanted to eat fukin kfc. got pissed so went home. a math is killing me. but i ain't taking any chances. not gonna get screwed by e paper again.




saw something last night ni prob would have been happier not seeing. got me depressed. all this time.. everyting.. or should i say nothing- has meant anything to you? when you were down. i was there. i was willing to do ANYTHING. to make you smile. hell. maybe we just weren't meant to be. arrgh. don't wanna talk abt it. i'll jus hope my dreams'll take me there.

hmmm. last nite was amazing. went there planning to study. den started to play the first song, got into the mood den play till my fingers hurt(: gues there's a place i cn relax and just let go uh.

gt home 11 plus. studied abit den slept.actually dun need to study de los. ss frigging easy. maths- EVEN MORE DUN NEED STUDY. lol.
today the papers went.. relatively well.. jus tt the geog rite. the question EXACTLY like the redspot book. haha. DIRECT ANSWER. lol.
den me and ben was like woooo... free answers! haha.
went lunch w likai. hell no. i ain't playing e frigging drums. dun care actually. just don't wanna play for hpt. lame la. knn. aft exams are for SLEEPING. lool.


blardy hiao. i need a new guitar.


iwantedtoseeursmile.

today was effing lamee. last nite, arnd 5 den i found my geog text. and tmr was the damn common test. rofls. study until damn late last nite. 1 plus.. den morning for some weird reason my shower was COLD. as in, freezing. went skool early to contine cramming, den english was uber lol. i write the v chim stuff. like: consequently, i feel that it is not feasible to... ROFLS. prob marks high. cos got a lot of chim phrases. ahahs. den came GEOG. aft saying my final prayers before the paper kills me, i looked at the questions. UBER LOL. the one part i bothered to memorise came out. the other questions were source based. but still i tink i screwed up in the other questions anyw, so i'm dead all the same. aft skool went home wif ke QUEEN and guys/gays. bought tis damn nice bracelet. damn. now i'm broke. 2mr got maths. finished studying in 30 mins. ss long ago memorised for a test le. so tonite can SLACK. woohoo.. anyw gotta get back to my song. composiing one for.. hahahas. byee.

sry peeps. so long nv blog liaos. so. recent times have struck me hard. why am i doing this, day by day? people who treat me like trash. why can't i just settle down? all these things, all that effort, gone in a moment? tragic.
and as i go to sleep at night, i wonder, if you'll ever be by my side? i'd do anything, but i don't know what.


yeah. and frm ytd, i ain't gonna entertain those fball girls already. don't they think? it's not my damn tournament. it's not my skills. i am doing my best to get them straight and maybe mr soon will let them play in a tournament.hell. they don't even bring thier stick. 1 they dun haf. 2 i tell them to borrow, they dun bother. 3 fball is v low on their priorities. fuk. i was even going to arrange a friendly one day. but NO. they had the choice to come. they didn't. f-ed up excuses saying they cannot leave. wth. i HEARD her say CAn leave IF YOU WANT. i guess they didn't uh. oh well. it's not my business anymore. but credits to CASSANDRA, for being at most of e trainings(: mayb cos of gary. oh well. lol. at least she's there.

i got a lot of screwed up stuff in my life now. i'll write about it maybe sometime. now common test coming. i dun wanna add to the troubles =/

i need you to make it all better. and let the sun shine in my life once again.

nothing's normal, and it probably never will be. i'm here without you. how much sense that makes in my current life. why can't i just settle down and be normal for a bit?
every night i go to sleep feeling alone. just thinking. of you. it's hard to live without at least hearing from youu.



oh wells. anyw ytd was okay la. left skool 1.20 plus, den met gary jerome and victor went j8 but ahem. A.F.C was formed. haha. ltr someone find out we definitely die. lool
esp me. err den ate and jerome had to go home and POOP. ya so i went causeway alone. ahem. I LOVE MY-----slippers. hahaha. got BRAZIL on it. but it too big for me la. rats. bought it anyw. man steph's gonna be sooo jealous. her specs quite nice btw.
\to gary+jerome. u anyhow say=die.

when it comes down to the chopping lock, on one is there. suddenly u're all alone.
everything you think you've had jus disappears. they're not wat you think you had.
it's all a lie.
end of the day there is no one left. they're all backstabbers and what not. and you're fighting alnoe for your life.
thi world that you thought you knew. suddenly never existed. LOVE IS A LIE. so are friends.




enough said. leave me alone.

hmmm. today was a nice nice day((:
err. started off wif eileen giving me 2 strawberries. one pillow and one hp keychain. LOL. she says it's gay. thx anywaes((: next time can slp mre comfortable in skool. hahaha. ya.. den lessons were normal ba.. my class ppl damn gay(in a bad way).. action sia. getting damn pissed by dem. esp e guys. dun noe how to scold dun scold la. act paikia. losers. get a life man.
ya.. jus glad skool's over.. den went for fball a while.. not too bad. underdogs rule man. scored 2 when vs andrew, stanley cj and gary worhs. almost hatrick but den e damn hpt ppl force me go meeting. wth 10 mins left do wat. anywaes left soon so here i am. tired. at tuition slacking. hmmm tink i'm gonna study soon.. haha.

i copied this from jermoe. i'm bored.


Name 20 people of the opposite sex
1.steph
2.eileen
3.jinshi
4.kezia
5.cassandra
6.winnie
7.joyce khoo
8.xinyu
9.yinxiu
10.eve
11.cathi
12.pearlyn
13.nicole
14.angel
15.gladys
16.hafizah
17.clarinda
18.shuyi
19.hweiting
20.anadee


QUESTIONS ABOUT THEM
Have you kissed number 5?: NO.
Would you ever consider going out with 2?:haha. hpt 3rd P
Do you find number 12 attractive?: quite.HAHA.
What is number 6's best feature?: she v pro at hpt stuff
What do you like about number 10?: she's..nice? lol.
Do you miss number 20?: HAHA. i noe someone who does
Has 9 ever hurt you?: YA.
Do you think that number 1 is a good friend?: OF COS. jiemei eh.
Do you wish you could get to know number 5 better?: i wont mind.
Is number 4 funny?: sometimes. when we sing: B-I-M-B....
Is number 7 cruel?:YA.
Do you think that number 11 fancies you?: LOL.dontknow.
Do you consider numbers 2, 9, 14 and 19 as good friends?: not all bah.some better. some less
Do you think that you and number 5 are soulmates?:i dont think so.just friends.
GIVE THEIR NUMBER AS YOUR ANSWER
Which numbers have you dated?: sHHHH..
Which numbers the funniest?:1. definitely.
Which numbers the cruelest?:8.
Which numbers are you the closest to?:hmmm.1,2.13.14.15.
Which number would you love to kill?: 8!!
Which number makes you the most happy?:1,2,11,13,14,15.
Which number is the most sarcastic?: 6,4,15
Which number(s) do you think you will be friends with forever?:all bah.
Which number(s) would you consider marrying?: AHEM.can all?! HAHA.jk jk de.
Which number has the best facial features?: 10,11,13,17,18,20.
Which number has the nicest voice?: all also nice la.
Which number has made you cry?: OH ):
Which number was the last you spoke to?: 8.
SOME QUESTIONS
Does number 5 make you laugh?: sometimes
Does number 12 talk dirty?: NO. haha.
Does number 11 scare you?: NOPE.
Does number 16 find you funny?: probably not.
Does number 19 insult you?: NO.
Does number 20 have a crush on you?: NO.
SOME QUESTIONS YOU HAVE TO ANSWER ABOUT THEM
Who is number 1's crush?: haha. starts wif H.
How old is number 5?: 13 i think.
Is number 11 sexy?: dontknow.
What county does number 2 live in?: SINGAPORE. lurhs. duh.
What programmes does number 13 like?: dontknow.
What habits does number 5 have?: dun noe tt much
What is 17's favourite number?: dontknow.

soo long nv blog sia.. hmm. today wuz such a pissing off day lurhs. damn. first go skool bag damn heavy. not to mention i was tired. then got Mr simon's lesson i slp kena scolded. ROFL. recess i ended up slpin.. haha.. then at least chi and physics was relatively better. chi class no teacher. ya so me cj and the RETRO boy go walk walk. haha. MR RETRO btw play wif water and wet me. lol.plus he so damn sweaty he still go hug me. bleaughs. hmmm. did i mention we all kena scolded half the maths lesson by ms tang? hmmm. ya. aft skool go eat lunch wif RETRO and xy. supposed to be mre ppl de but cj go meet principle aft he threw a paper aeroplane during the student council investiture, ROFL. den ali pangseh go wif kezia they all becos of his girl. wth. ya den steph dunno disappeared where. haha. floorball: steph and eileen gt come but disappeared. supposed to haf girls training oso.. but NOBODY passed the msg. den i was frantically calling ppl last nite la. wth. hpt can pass. fball dun giv a shit. den they say i go off and play. wth. i got match can? act planned to play as few matches as possible so i cn teach them stuff. but end up wit tis shit. why do i even care.

butanywaes fball was funn. 1st team up: ME, JER, CLARENCE and KOK WEI. 1st time play wif jack they all lose 2-1. second time win 2-0/2-1 i tink. and i scored BOTH. wahahahas. but i was abit rough. hope dey dun take offense=/
den when almost everyth was over it was TWO ON TWO. yayy. me and clarence(team unihoc((:) went on a 6-match winning streak be4 losing to jer's team. lol.anywaes, we had fun.
went hm aft tt, but bought bubble tea wit calrence den go buy bac food myself.
and now, here i am. quite a full day duncha tink. still haven recoered frm staying up to watch the wc finals.ITALY ROCKS btw.


why must this waiting continue? i dun wanna be alone. i tink abt you, dream abt you all the time. but mus it onli be in my dreams? reality seems so far away.

whoa. last few days was madness la.
busy. got investiture today.. wear until so gay.. white long sleeved plus blak shoe.
lol. it was okay la. sec 2s still no initiative as usual.
haha. den my brazil wrist cuff still kena confiscated):
arrgh.. den ytd haf 2 miss fball cos of e lamee rehersal la..
haha. MR JEROME LUA blame me for not telling dem hall gt space. cos dey had 2 play in e parada sq. LOL. nt my fault lurhs.
hahas and yes clarence next week i come den we pair up and go on winning streaks again. HAHAHHAHA.
oh yes. MY HP can use liao(:
last few days didn't msg anyone cos fone bill to high. yupp. but frm today can((:



wat i say ain't ever a joke. ilu, now and forever.

hmmm. so long nv post blog again.. hahas.. got a new laptop. heh.
err.. oh yahh last thurs was fun. pon council go fball.. LOL
ya den i found e reason y i can't dribble tt well le.. MY STICK.
ya.. i use jeromee's JANNE TAHKA sitck.lol. den damn pro loh.
can solo up den goal. thrash cj 3-0 hahaas..
ya.. den i pair up wif clarence even better la. 7 plus game unbeaten
winning streak!!!!!!!!!!!
hahass... scored 10 plus goals. but no hatrick. cos everytime is 3 goal limit. den i score 2
den jianyi always score the last one leh. arrrgh..
haha.. ya so skool has been pretty boring.. ha. i got pay attention okay(:
chi class haven slp yet.(((((:
hahas. den dat day joel and me laughing abt the hard gay ting.. LOL.
for the ppl who nv see- MUS GO SEE((:
ya.. btw germany won.. haha..
match analysis:
argentina 1-0 up,
why the manager send in a playmaker?
1-0 against a home team is too slim to stand on. DUH.
ha. HIRE ME. i'm a better manager




scars of the past i cannot forget. i feel the same way. but i'm just not ready yet. jus gimme a little time

heys.. so long nv blog le..
hahas..
err. lazy la
so jus gonna talk abt today. ahahs. today v boring. TRIPLE ENGLISH. wahhs. die sia.
den during chinese we go library mahhs. haha sat wif cj, joel and keqin.. haha. we crap arnd and den didn't do e compo lurhs. lol. i was making fun of joel's RETRO hairstyle.. haha// den cj wrote something on a piece of paper.. lol i tink fer gy... eee mushy gay. hahaa. den joel was throwing paper all over e place.. lol.
aft skool not much.. play soccer..ya.. boring la.
not much actually. i ha a headache PLUS cold anywaes.
den got irritated by someone.. fcuk laa.
hmmm. tink i'm gonna do some work now. cos i'm a GOOD boy.. hahas..





i wanna see youu---------missing you):